I'm so Sorry about about your little bear. My husband and I lost Sadie September 15 and it's been very hard. Every day we asked how Sadie was doing, because although very weak and not eating she was still very happy and loved attention. Us too, we wanted to let Sadie die at home if she was not to beat this ugly disease, but unfortunately she didn't get that chance and we were not there with her when she passed. We felt so quilty. We had her cremated and when we finally brought her home, it was really strange, because we went outside for a little while and when we came back in the house, the whole house smelt of Sadie (she was never in the house when she was alive). We knew then that Sadie really did die at home, her spirit left her cremated little ashes when she finally came home. My heart goes out to you, we still cry for her and I hug her urn every day and thank God she was part of my life. Take care. CLS