Yes, the kidney thing.
Aparently, after much hunting on the internet, I have discovered that for some dogs, after recovering from Blasto, an evil second act can mysteriously apear, sudden on set of kidney failure. It is often called "Blastomycosis' Second Act".
And sadly, Gunner is in the second act. Though she tests negative for Blasto, her kidneys are finished. She was supposed to be dead 2 months ago. She is still hanging in there, but I can see she is slipping. She sleeps more, eats less, has very little desire to play anymore. Though she still gets excited to see a cat, she doesn't chase it half as far. She used to attack our cat all the time and maul him and leave him all slobbered and bulldog loved on, but she only takes a half hearted run at him now. The cat misses it and rubs on her trying to encourage her but she doesn't have much interest. She used to love to rough house with my husband for at least an hour every night. Now she just lies on the couch and whines for him to come sit with her. It is so heart breaking.
I took her to the vet yesterday because she has conjunctivitus in her only eye. He did a blood test and she is off the charts in all directions. Some levels maxed out on the high end and some maxed out on the low end and some too low to even measure. It was sad to see that her body is fighting as hard as it can because she is making a ton of new red blood cells, but her kidneys just won't co-operate. The vet said he had never seen such a bad blood test in a living animal before and that it is a testament to the great care she has been getting so far. That was small comfort.
Frustration, anger, rage, heart-break. After all of the thousands and thousands of dollars, the round the clock care, nothing but the best for my little homely girl and still she is slipping away. A million what-if's. Pointing fingers. Pounding on the table. Praying for miricals. Nothing helping. Watching the best dog I ever had, loved the most, slip away millimeter by millimeter is horrid.
I am sorry. It is just a really bad day for me today.